Annoyance...

[InbetweenDreams]

@Bhp91126 He does need to make a move and I also agree, we've had conversations about it several times. I also understand it is his own money, I'm not mad at him for doing whatever it is he wants to do with his money but it does make me question about where I am to go with him. It's not that I don't understand why he likes antiques and cars, but it is more like he hoards things. I mean when it is to the point where you can't walk into rooms or walk straight in the hallway, is it collecting or hoarding?

That being said, he is an attractive guy, he's sweet, has a good personality and overall a genuinely good person. I think that goes a very long way, especially considering the guy I dated last he was a pretty big asshole and controlling. He had a nice job, made way more money than me, but I was quite unhappy with him. Now, is the guy I'm with now some kind of rebound. Eh, I don't buy too much into this being a rebound thing. I guess they exist but I don't think that is what this is. Me and my ex were broke up before we were broke up, the fire died long before I broke it off. Do I love him? You know, I really hate using that word. Love is overused. If I loved him then I should embrace all that he is and all of his flaws and I'm not quite there yet. I don't believe people love each other when they're breaking it off in 2 months, it takes a long time to know someone. So, if I say I love someone I want it to be clear that I'm not bullshitting. I feel like I am still figuring out who he is, afterall we don't get to spend a lot of time together due to the distance.

That all being said, I don't really have a lot of friends who I hang out with these days. It's rural out here, I'm just not the social butterfly. I just don't put myself out there really. So I am left with myself to make life exciting after work and well I suck at it, seems I go from one hobby or activity to the next. So maybe he's filling in for some of that, even if I don't want to admit it.