Annoyance...

[InbetweenDreams]

So it's been a few months. Long story short, he hasn't begun looking for another job. What I thought would be a few weeks, you know to decompress and just take a break and all turned into "I'll start after New Years" to we're halfway through the month. Not that it matters because this relationship is DOA. He's not going to change, maybe he will but I can't wait 3-5 years to see whether he gets his shit together.

I can't bring myself to end this. I am afraid of hurting him and that I will send him spiraling backwards, but is that my responsibility? I really don't want to be a shitty person but I also feel like the longer I allow this to continue that I am being a shitty person. How the fuck am I supposed to end this? I just don't see how this doesn't end up being messy. I mean this isn't my first rodeo but this time around seems far more difficult to deal with.