Annoyance...

[ChadCoxRox]

I forgot there's some distance. I feel almost hostile reading this and I'm not entirely sure why. I guess I just wish for you a stable, heart-warming, yummy, sexy, interpersonal relationship without all the "issues." Right? LOL That exists? ugh.  Listen, he sounds more like a project and you sound ambivalent enough to tolerate the stacked deck. Dude, have you ever been attracted sexually to females before? I have to be honest about my thoughts. If she knows the deal and is still willing to facilitate your exploration, then go for it. If she doesn't understand the situation, my bias is the exploration seems like that of a 19 or 20 year old. Why are the consequences associated with youthful decision making seemingly more understandable? So ageist. ...I'm not thinking this reply out much. I perceive you as deserving a so much more satisfying and refined relationship.