What's on Your Mind

[InbetweenDreams]

@Jay It seems that it is very common that we're harder on ourselves than we are with others. I have insecurities myself and similarly I feel the same way about certain guys. I often feel that someone is out of my league because I think they're too good looking, too successful, too wealthy, too much and in a way I feel like I'm being honest with myself but I also feel in retrospect that I'm cheating myself.

About 6 years ago I met someone who I had a huge crush on. I become a bit infatuated, jealous and anxious because he was such a good looking guy and through my rose tinted glasses felt that he was just the perfect guy. I mean he was smart, sexy, we had some things in common, similar interests. Because I was so insecure about myself and had become anxious and jealous I pushed him away (there's more to it). I didn't push him away because he was so much better looking, or because he was going down a more successful career path, I did it myself. What am I getting at? People tend to appreciate and value things about you that you simply aren't cognizant of. I really regret having pushed him away in the manner that I did, as a result, hasn't spoke to me since and unfortunately that's the way it is.