08-28-2012, 06:22 AM
There. I am taking the fourth step.
First was in acknowledging it.
Second was in telling a select few friends (at least one of whom knew.
Third is putting it into words by changing my profile status away from "Single Bi". Granted, it's not out loud, or directly typed, but I did this much, and for me it's huge.
Fourth is this, and, so far, the hardest: I am going to type it. Right here. Right now. And it scares the hell out of me. But I *have* to do it, because acceptance of oneself is so important. Here goes:
I am not straight. I am not bisexual. I. Am. Gay. Me. I am gay. I am a single mom finally acknowledging she is gay.
Beyond that, I don't know what to say. But at least I finally put it into words. My body is tense. I want to cry. I have yet to feel relieved, but I suspect that is on the way. Oh, and I posted this on a forum section called "Coming Out."
For so many reasons, it is not wise to come out publicly. I won't get into that. Right now, this is a safe place to say it. Those three words that have haunted me for a long time. Sometimes buried, sometimes on the surface, but always there, never gone. I'm going to type it one more time, because it's still surreal.
I am gay.
Six letters. The whole world. I'm freaking exhausted. But as soon as I click the button to post, I have taken one more step to Who I Am.
First was in acknowledging it.
Second was in telling a select few friends (at least one of whom knew.
Third is putting it into words by changing my profile status away from "Single Bi". Granted, it's not out loud, or directly typed, but I did this much, and for me it's huge.
Fourth is this, and, so far, the hardest: I am going to type it. Right here. Right now. And it scares the hell out of me. But I *have* to do it, because acceptance of oneself is so important. Here goes:
I am not straight. I am not bisexual. I. Am. Gay. Me. I am gay. I am a single mom finally acknowledging she is gay.
Beyond that, I don't know what to say. But at least I finally put it into words. My body is tense. I want to cry. I have yet to feel relieved, but I suspect that is on the way. Oh, and I posted this on a forum section called "Coming Out."
For so many reasons, it is not wise to come out publicly. I won't get into that. Right now, this is a safe place to say it. Those three words that have haunted me for a long time. Sometimes buried, sometimes on the surface, but always there, never gone. I'm going to type it one more time, because it's still surreal.
I am gay.
Six letters. The whole world. I'm freaking exhausted. But as soon as I click the button to post, I have taken one more step to Who I Am.
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