09-12-2012, 04:14 PM
Having trouble gauging sexuality?
It's been almost two years since my last sexual encounter and she was actually kinda heavy( I like that sometimes in a women) she wasn't really attractive at all but I was drinking and was horny and I ended up cumin fast so I enjoyed it and i even *wanted her to be on top but she was too embarrassed... I've also had some other really awesome sexual encounters with women .. *Now since then my sexual encounters have only been with myself and Internet porn.. Which usually consists of tranny porn and gay porn lately.. Sometimes straight porn and females masterbating on webcam.. *But I've noticed that when I think about gay *porn my thoughts are more powerful and give me a harder erection with gay porn and tranny porn.. But with thoughts of women it's not as satisfying and I don't get a quick erection... But it's a different story when it comes to sex I've came so fast with some of the women I've had sex but I've also had a few times where I couldn't get it up and now that I look back I'm wondering if there was a reason for those times.. Short example... I was around a women the otherday and I imagined me going to the restroom with her and I started to get an erection because the thought of having sex with her in the restroom was pleasing to me.. And I've also realized I can have sex with guys it's been awhile since I did this but i was able to get an erection *and I enjoyed the sex.. So I'm not sure what this says about me.. I sometimes wonder if I'm gay because i sometimes get the impression that people think I am maybe because I'm soft spoken and shy *but I'm not sure if that's some kind of insecurity thing or that people are reading the gay signals *through mannerisms and the way i sound?.. I've come to the conclusion that I'm openminded to sex with women men and trannys.. ( still want to *experiment with a ts) But *when it *comes to a relationship would prefer a romantic relationship with a women *and am not open to one with a man because the thought of that does nothing for me *and i just hope i can break away from my *Insecurities and hopefully find a wimen who accepts me and doesnt judge me in a negative light bevause of mu lack of social skills or that i may seem like a bit of a loser... Thats a fear of mine .. But my main concern and reason for this post is because I *don't understand why i get quick erections thinking of sex with men over women and makes me wonder if there is an obvious meaning to this that I don't see.. Ive just realized these thoughts about two years ago .. Or is it possible I'm over thinking this matter because I tend to over think situations .. Although this erection thing is happening and I'm *Not sure what to think about myself and I have a bad social anxiety problem and haven't been social within *the last two years so I'm not sure when i will have a sexual encounter of any kind I'm 24 now.. /:.. Any plausible advice?
It's been almost two years since my last sexual encounter and she was actually kinda heavy( I like that sometimes in a women) she wasn't really attractive at all but I was drinking and was horny and I ended up cumin fast so I enjoyed it and i even *wanted her to be on top but she was too embarrassed... I've also had some other really awesome sexual encounters with women .. *Now since then my sexual encounters have only been with myself and Internet porn.. Which usually consists of tranny porn and gay porn lately.. Sometimes straight porn and females masterbating on webcam.. *But I've noticed that when I think about gay *porn my thoughts are more powerful and give me a harder erection with gay porn and tranny porn.. But with thoughts of women it's not as satisfying and I don't get a quick erection... But it's a different story when it comes to sex I've came so fast with some of the women I've had sex but I've also had a few times where I couldn't get it up and now that I look back I'm wondering if there was a reason for those times.. Short example... I was around a women the otherday and I imagined me going to the restroom with her and I started to get an erection because the thought of having sex with her in the restroom was pleasing to me.. And I've also realized I can have sex with guys it's been awhile since I did this but i was able to get an erection *and I enjoyed the sex.. So I'm not sure what this says about me.. I sometimes wonder if I'm gay because i sometimes get the impression that people think I am maybe because I'm soft spoken and shy *but I'm not sure if that's some kind of insecurity thing or that people are reading the gay signals *through mannerisms and the way i sound?.. I've come to the conclusion that I'm openminded to sex with women men and trannys.. ( still want to *experiment with a ts) But *when it *comes to a relationship would prefer a romantic relationship with a women *and am not open to one with a man because the thought of that does nothing for me *and i just hope i can break away from my *Insecurities and hopefully find a wimen who accepts me and doesnt judge me in a negative light bevause of mu lack of social skills or that i may seem like a bit of a loser... Thats a fear of mine .. But my main concern and reason for this post is because I *don't understand why i get quick erections thinking of sex with men over women and makes me wonder if there is an obvious meaning to this that I don't see.. Ive just realized these thoughts about two years ago .. Or is it possible I'm over thinking this matter because I tend to over think situations .. Although this erection thing is happening and I'm *Not sure what to think about myself and I have a bad social anxiety problem and haven't been social within *the last two years so I'm not sure when i will have a sexual encounter of any kind I'm 24 now.. /:.. Any plausible advice?
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