09-24-2012, 12:47 PM
I don't know where to even begin with this. It just seems like everytime I start to feel safe and secure, something happens to fuck it all up! I went to see my boyfriend Saturday after work. Even bought a new outfit to wear to look good for him. And from the moment I got there I could tell something was wrong.
He just seemed cold and distant, like there was something on his mind but he was afraid to say anything. As the evening went on he told me there was this other guy that he'd been thinking about and he felt bad for thinking about him. He said that nothing had happened between them but that this guy had been on his mind alot lately.
I told him that it was ok and only natural for this to happen considering we are 45 minutes apart all week and only get to see each other on the weekends. And then he told me that when we had been making out earlier that he had thought about this other guy. Sounds like karma biting me in the ass right?
So I told him to get dressed cause we were going out. We just went to the store and looked around but I was trying to give him some space to clear his head. At one point I even walked away while he was talking to a friend just so he could talk freely to him. Afterwards we grabbed a quick bite to eat them went back to his room to watch a show and cuddle.
Things were going great until another of his friends came in. That's when it got a little awkward and I have to admit I was more than a little jealous. After all, he and I were trying to work something out and needed some time just to ourselves.
So the friend finally leaves and we finish watching the show then it's time for me to leave. So he walks me to my car and we talk for awhile. I tell him that I love him and that we are going to make it through this and he tells me that he's scared because he's never had a relationship like this before and in all of his past relationships he's always gotten cold feet about 4 months in and called it off.
I tell him that I love him and that no matter what I will always be there for him and that I completely understand what he's going through. After a little more of my pep talk we ended the night with just a quick bit of making out and them I head home.
So yesterdayI think things are going good. He tells me that he's really glad we got to talk and that he's working on his fears and all. We had a really great talk during my lunch break and text each other off and on throughout the day. Of course he had rehearsals last night so there was a period between 5 and 9:30 PM where we don't talk.
He calls me after rehearsals last night and while we laughed and joked during the conversation, I could just tell that something was on his mind. It was like he called to make sure he hadn't done anything wrong. So afte a brief phone conversation and a few texts
I now find myself feeling like I'm loosing him. And that scares me!
I know it's only been a few short months but I really love this guy! I'd do anything for him and to have him say these things and act like this scares me? Am I just overreacting or do you think there's more to it than just "cold feet?" or did I jump into a relationship to soon and fall head over heels way too quickly?
He just seemed cold and distant, like there was something on his mind but he was afraid to say anything. As the evening went on he told me there was this other guy that he'd been thinking about and he felt bad for thinking about him. He said that nothing had happened between them but that this guy had been on his mind alot lately.
I told him that it was ok and only natural for this to happen considering we are 45 minutes apart all week and only get to see each other on the weekends. And then he told me that when we had been making out earlier that he had thought about this other guy. Sounds like karma biting me in the ass right?
So I told him to get dressed cause we were going out. We just went to the store and looked around but I was trying to give him some space to clear his head. At one point I even walked away while he was talking to a friend just so he could talk freely to him. Afterwards we grabbed a quick bite to eat them went back to his room to watch a show and cuddle.
Things were going great until another of his friends came in. That's when it got a little awkward and I have to admit I was more than a little jealous. After all, he and I were trying to work something out and needed some time just to ourselves.
So the friend finally leaves and we finish watching the show then it's time for me to leave. So he walks me to my car and we talk for awhile. I tell him that I love him and that we are going to make it through this and he tells me that he's scared because he's never had a relationship like this before and in all of his past relationships he's always gotten cold feet about 4 months in and called it off.
I tell him that I love him and that no matter what I will always be there for him and that I completely understand what he's going through. After a little more of my pep talk we ended the night with just a quick bit of making out and them I head home.
So yesterdayI think things are going good. He tells me that he's really glad we got to talk and that he's working on his fears and all. We had a really great talk during my lunch break and text each other off and on throughout the day. Of course he had rehearsals last night so there was a period between 5 and 9:30 PM where we don't talk.
He calls me after rehearsals last night and while we laughed and joked during the conversation, I could just tell that something was on his mind. It was like he called to make sure he hadn't done anything wrong. So afte a brief phone conversation and a few texts
I now find myself feeling like I'm loosing him. And that scares me!
I know it's only been a few short months but I really love this guy! I'd do anything for him and to have him say these things and act like this scares me? Am I just overreacting or do you think there's more to it than just "cold feet?" or did I jump into a relationship to soon and fall head over heels way too quickly?
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