10-24-2012, 10:23 AM
I'm rather curious to know the answer to this - 
I have a work friend who I have a pretty big crush on, but I especially like it when he teases me about my weight, or talks down to me. He's never genuinely mean or nasty and is a good friend to me, it's mostly just playful dominance, but now I'm starting to really enjoy it and crave it. He's well aware of the fact and uses it on me often when I talk to him.
Most people would take offence to some jock pointing out their belly, or having someone insult them, even in jest. Sometimes I say hi to him and he almost ignores me but other times he'll smile and rub my belly a little, maybe call me pup, and I melt a bit and blush deeply. He's told me he likes S&M and really enjoys training guys, plus he is VERY handsome alpha male type. Lately more and more I kind of want to try it but it seems scary.
I suppose what I'm wondering is why I'm attracted to this sort of behaviour? it makes no sense from a human point of view why I should enjoy derogatory or hurtful comments, or emotional or physical pain. It confuses me... What is it about human nature that in some cases makes masochism a pleasurable experience?
I'm aware it may be to do with issues of self-respect and all kinds of things. I'm not looking for a deep psychological evaluation, just wondered whether I am crazy or if anyone else here can shed any light.
I have a work friend who I have a pretty big crush on, but I especially like it when he teases me about my weight, or talks down to me. He's never genuinely mean or nasty and is a good friend to me, it's mostly just playful dominance, but now I'm starting to really enjoy it and crave it. He's well aware of the fact and uses it on me often when I talk to him.
Most people would take offence to some jock pointing out their belly, or having someone insult them, even in jest. Sometimes I say hi to him and he almost ignores me but other times he'll smile and rub my belly a little, maybe call me pup, and I melt a bit and blush deeply. He's told me he likes S&M and really enjoys training guys, plus he is VERY handsome alpha male type. Lately more and more I kind of want to try it but it seems scary.
I suppose what I'm wondering is why I'm attracted to this sort of behaviour? it makes no sense from a human point of view why I should enjoy derogatory or hurtful comments, or emotional or physical pain. It confuses me... What is it about human nature that in some cases makes masochism a pleasurable experience?
I'm aware it may be to do with issues of self-respect and all kinds of things. I'm not looking for a deep psychological evaluation, just wondered whether I am crazy or if anyone else here can shed any light.
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