I cant come out

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The first thing that I would recommend is getting you overall life back on track. Get back in shape if you don't feel good about your current appearance, ackwoledge whether or not you're attracted to guys first. Everything else, dating, coming out (or not) will have to come later. Are you studying something? Working? Start thinking about moving out of the parents house.

After those things are settled, I think you'll have a bit more freedom to do things without having to worry about the family. It'll take time and effort but it's not impossible.