10-03-2010, 01:41 AM
Hello guys and girls,
I have been out of a physically abusive relationship for almost two years.. and i find i can't come back to a place where i'm happy. alone/around people, the common thing is always that i'm unhappy and lost. I don't wanna turn to medication. I'm unable to fill that deep emotional relationship I had.
How does one turn this around? I try to change my thinking to 'i'm so thankful that..', but i always come back to the victim. the lost young kid who doesn't know how to make himself happy. a kid who was abused by the man he loved.
i would give anything for an answer to this. i spend my weekends in thinking and feeling bad for myself. i dont wanna meet other guys (i have been), but none of them are HIM.
WHY? i hate that I have to be the one who deals with this?? i just want to be loved and cared for and love in return.
why is life so lonely? :frown:
I have been out of a physically abusive relationship for almost two years.. and i find i can't come back to a place where i'm happy. alone/around people, the common thing is always that i'm unhappy and lost. I don't wanna turn to medication. I'm unable to fill that deep emotional relationship I had.
How does one turn this around? I try to change my thinking to 'i'm so thankful that..', but i always come back to the victim. the lost young kid who doesn't know how to make himself happy. a kid who was abused by the man he loved.
i would give anything for an answer to this. i spend my weekends in thinking and feeling bad for myself. i dont wanna meet other guys (i have been), but none of them are HIM.
WHY? i hate that I have to be the one who deals with this?? i just want to be loved and cared for and love in return.
why is life so lonely? :frown:
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