Some help?

[Jay]

Everyday I struggle with who I am as a person. I feel anxious and down most of the time.
Being gay makes me feel like less of a person, and I don't know how to be myself around people. I'm not feminine at all, in fact everyone I meet says they never suspect me gay. This makes it difficult to let people know who I am. It feels like everyone expects me to be something, and when I'm not I feel like I let them down. Sometimes I try really hard to act all tough and be someone who I am not. I hate it! I just want to be myself. A lot of the time, when I'm in public, I'm always watching myself, being careful not to do anything "gay" and I over think every movement I make.
I just worry too much about what others think of me.
Being like this is tiring, and the only time I can relax is when I'm alone or with my closest friend.
I'm not as friendly towards people as I used to be, and I think its because I don't love myself the way I used to.

Oh and I'm a slut. Every guy that throws himself at me I get excited and think its love. I give that guy everything..my heart, my body...

I want to love myself more and have better confidence. I know I'm effin cute and smart and funny. I know I'm a good person. I just don't know who I am right now and I'm scurred.

Robbie, we live for ourselves. We do not live to please people around us. Our individuality makes each one of us special and awesome.

If some people can't accept you to be this or that, it's not your problem. It's theirs. You are you. You don't need to fix yourself to please your surrounding.

People who can appreciate you, like you and respect are the people who can accept you as who you are.