scared to death

[dlboy53]

Well I meet this guy a few week ago on cupid and we have been emailing each other and texting each other for the past 3 week or so. Well last week we finally meet for the first time in person. We hit it off well, and I think he likes me and all I can do is think about him. The hardest thing is is that our work schedules do coincide with each other to meet up with each other to make sure things are on the right page sort of speak.

Which brings me to the scary part and that is that I want to be with him more then we are, but at the same time it seems like I tend to do or say something stupid to break the relationship and if i do get past that stage then I go into a clam mod in which I'm scared to death to do anything sexual with another guy. I'm not sure why I do these things, not sure if I do these things because I don't want the feeling of rejection. Then or it could be that I think to much and think I should not be doing these things with another man. Then again I'm not sure if these feeling are a thing of the past because not I'm more open to myself that I'm gay.

I want to make this special for him and myself but at the same time I'm affraid that I'll do something stupid.

Any words of wisdom out there?