12-24-2011, 05:49 AM
Somehow most of the posts I've written find me logged out of my account, though I'm not certain how. And as such, they don't appear here. And so here's a second try at my intro:
Yeah, so I've always been kind of an outsider, in school I was always in band and theatre. I realized pretty early on, about junior high, that I was definitely interested in guys. It mostly started with some porn that a gay friend of mine showed me, at first I was like this is weird, but then later I got home and well, got pretty much addicted. I considered that I was bisexual and that that was perfectly normal. I asked a guy out (through a note passed by a friend of course, usual junior high methodology) who was rumored to be bi. He felt terrible and let me down pretty easily, telling me that I had been misled and that he hoped I wouldn't be crushed by his rejection, but of course I was, for a fairly short while. Life continued on, I asked out a number of girls throughout high school and didn't really think that much about guys... except when looking at porn of course, for I soon found that often times fantasizing about women would not end with orgasm.
I moved on to college and not a whole lot changed, I felt static (and still do) in the whole relationship/dating game thing until my last semester when I first found interest in a cute guy in my watercolor class. He was tall and thin, had a wavy head of brown hair and a plain and at the same time wholly cute face. By my inspection I was pretty certain that he was interested in guys too... not true. He turned me down and once again felt terrible, blah blah blah so on and so forth. I've also recently found a pretty recently-developed infatuation with a good friend of mine, which will be explained in full detail in a later post. Anyways, that's kind of my relationship/sexuality story entailing how I became frustrated as hell and at last turned to the good people on this site.
I really look forward to having people to discuss these thoughts, feelings and emotions with and hope that in turn I can do my bit of good for the others on here.
-Der Jack
"Lately it occurs to me, what a long strange trip it's been"
Yeah, so I've always been kind of an outsider, in school I was always in band and theatre. I realized pretty early on, about junior high, that I was definitely interested in guys. It mostly started with some porn that a gay friend of mine showed me, at first I was like this is weird, but then later I got home and well, got pretty much addicted. I considered that I was bisexual and that that was perfectly normal. I asked a guy out (through a note passed by a friend of course, usual junior high methodology) who was rumored to be bi. He felt terrible and let me down pretty easily, telling me that I had been misled and that he hoped I wouldn't be crushed by his rejection, but of course I was, for a fairly short while. Life continued on, I asked out a number of girls throughout high school and didn't really think that much about guys... except when looking at porn of course, for I soon found that often times fantasizing about women would not end with orgasm.
I moved on to college and not a whole lot changed, I felt static (and still do) in the whole relationship/dating game thing until my last semester when I first found interest in a cute guy in my watercolor class. He was tall and thin, had a wavy head of brown hair and a plain and at the same time wholly cute face. By my inspection I was pretty certain that he was interested in guys too... not true. He turned me down and once again felt terrible, blah blah blah so on and so forth. I've also recently found a pretty recently-developed infatuation with a good friend of mine, which will be explained in full detail in a later post. Anyways, that's kind of my relationship/sexuality story entailing how I became frustrated as hell and at last turned to the good people on this site.
I really look forward to having people to discuss these thoughts, feelings and emotions with and hope that in turn I can do my bit of good for the others on here.
-Der Jack
"Lately it occurs to me, what a long strange trip it's been"
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