My time

[Bricg1970]

I am in the line of thinking that at the end all relationships are same whether Gay, bi, hetero, you have to compromise, is the sharing, caring and looking after each other. I reached an agreement with my wife to try before splitting out, but I will be open and not denying anything, perhaps this sounds weird, but denial is not an option anymore, I simply can’t. We agree that I want to meet another people and if something is meant to happen will happen, we must accept our nature and you can’t fight back, is a waste of time. She recognized that she like Gay man; after all I am the second time in her life and it seems she is accepting me this way more.

We will give a try and if it works perfect, although, it won’t be the same, I not expecting to be the same, honestly I am simply myself. it is still a relationship with someone you love, BUT if we see that it doesn´t work, and perhaps is meant to fail, at least we tried it and it will help us to reduce the emotional blow (|I haven’t slept more than 3hrs per night for the last two weeks, lost weight) and accept that each party definitely should take a different path from now and be best friends.

In my experience, we tend to miss things that no longer exist and once you realize it, the acceptance process is clearer and healthier and we can act without any doubt. After all, she deserves it for all of those years and I can’t come out and leave straight away. Emotionally is too much from what we can bear.

Meanwhile, I want to empower her to face the possible upcoming new issues, make her more self confidence and stronger. After all, she is the only woman I am being able to love and love me.

Whatever will be, will be
The future´s not ours to see
Que Sera, Sera