Been feeling real down.

[Blue]

Fid, I know it feels like your whole world has been upended but realistically and objectively I doubt it has.

I don't know one iota of what is going on in your life but, I would guess that even if you lost a relationship with a woman over accepting being gay, you didn't lose whatever education, job skills, work experience, likes, dislikes, financial and retirement dreams, etc...

Sure you have a very good reason to go make new friends, meet new people but, except for the homophobic, you probably still have some of your old friends too. Can't be 100% sure because there are a few of us who literally did lose everything and everyone when we cam out, but even then we didn't loose who we are, what we liked, or what we wanted for ourselves, we just got honest with ourselves and accepted that our ideal life partner would be a man instead of a woman and, that if we were going to have children it would be via a surrogate or adoption.

We still like this kind of car, that kind of food, think this fabric feels better for our undershorts than that, like one style of t-shirt over another, etc...