New Here and Finally Accepting... I think

[GossamerMoon]

I love to see "purty" boys (like the hunk who plays Thor), but, well, as long as they have their pants on. ;-)

But straight men in general almost always annoy me. There have been very few that I consider turn ons, but less so since allowing myself to think I don't *have* to like them. It's all so much in my head. From the heart, I have always, always connected with girls way better. Especially with my first crush. So much so that I avoided her somewhat because I didn't want her to get creeped out. So crazy that she came out years later. I was so mad!

Point being that some cute guys could be arousing, but only to a degree. If I was the one-night stand kind of person, I think that's the best I could say about that feeling. But if I could way easier see being around a girl, and mostly, emotionally.

For me, I think yeah, there's the arousal part, but the emotional part is more. It's so hard to say because I've never been romantic. My ex wasn't romantic. He tried a little but gave up. He was nice enough in a lot of ways, but he ended up bitter and subtly nasty.

I don't know if this makes any sense. Maybe I'm just rambling because this looks like a safe place to do so. I just don't know. 8^/