Apathy

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I don't know what you want to do. You still want to go to college and then get on your own so all I can say is I hope you're working to do something that you WANT rather than what you're SUPPOSED to want (if the latter then I'm not surprised you feel a lot of apathy about it). So without knowing any of your specifics all I can think of is to offer this for your consideration:

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Simple_living

Btw, I've worked with plenty of homeless people and I'm amazed at how many not only have iphones (some of them are always texting each other, too...) but even lappies (in which they watch movies and sometimes game). So I know you don't have to generate your own power to watch Buffy or play games, though you can learn how to do that as well (some have not only made themselves independent from the grid but even sell surplus power they generate to power companies), or alternately become a technomad (who travel on everything from motorcycles to RVs without any permanent home and manage to stay connected to the web).