Not sure what to think about myself

[Rutstuck]

The social anxiety thing is actually a huge problem for me right now it's ran my life since I realized it was what it was and that was in highschool I just never understood why I felt different from everyone in social situations ( not in a homosexual way) but more of a hypersensitive stick on my head paranoid way.. Most people outgrow this in their late teens early twenties but for someone like me it's been dragging on longer than it should I even feel stunted as far as growing up into a young confident adult I feel like I think about things insecure fifteen year olds think about.. I don't really talk to anyone about these things had a therapist but I stopped seeing him ( money issues).. I could get mote into detail about my problem maybe you could help me see things from a different perspective.. How do I message you?