Not That Anyone Cares But...

[Bowyn Aerrow]

NTACB... honestly if you need a drink you have a problem - a drinking problem.

Right now I need a drink, as such I am drinking out of need - not want. This means I have a drinking problem... Of course I have no problem getting the fluid into my guts, the problem is I have a fifth... erm, HAD a fifth I have like a shot left... ok what I call a shot ain't exactly a shot.

Once one starts drinking like this its hard to stop. Honestly, I strongly suggest you do not start or you will end up like me, old, decrepit, with not a single goddamn thing to show for 47 years of life needing yet one more drink in order to maybe (hopefully) find oblivion at the bottom of your bottle.

You don't want to be me - seriously, life is really fucked up being me - its hurtful, painful and the only way it ends is with death.

Yeah I know, I come off as a happy go-lucky, always funny elf - the reality is I am not that happy and seriously contemplate putting the muzzle of my side arm in my mouth and blowing the back of my head across the wall behind me.

If you are depressed, if you are feeling crappy get a therapist and deal with the issues causing that. The longer you delay in getting real help, the more fucked up you will be until the day comes when you are totally messed up beyond hope or redemption.

Drinking is a downward venture - and the bottom isn't hell, its the sewers of hell. DON'T DO IT!!!!

I say this with total love for you, don't make me come down there and kick your ass for following in my foot steps.