06-09-2020, 07:50 PM
More so than the female spiders who eat their mates, the ones that are eaten by their babies really creep me out. I was staying with a friend in his family's house out on Long Island earlier this year, we were drinking in the basement, and he kept looking past me, but wouldn't tell me what he was looking at. Finally I saw it, a biiiiiiiig spider, like size of my hand, furry spider. I basically climbed on his shoulders and begged him to take me back to the city immediately, but I wouldn't let him kill it.
We looked it up online and I think it ended up being a black lace weaver, or a wolf spider, I honestly don't want to go back and try to figure it out again. And on the wikipedia it was talking about matriphagy and that really horrified me.
It came from when I worked at a summer camp when I was younger, and it just struck me that all these kids would sit in a park and flip out when they saw an insect and immediately either try to kill it or get one us to kill it for them. So I spent the whole summer trying to learn up on the native insects in my area so I could tell the kids about them, from a distance, and try to get them to respect this is just another type of animal. You wouldn't kill a cat just for walking by you, but it could potentially fuck you up if it felt threatened too.
I'll probably end up dying from a spider bite tonight now that im saying all this, but I just feel that being scary or gross shouldn't be a death sentence for an animal, no matter how small or insignificant we think they and their lives are. They're just living their lives and doing their thing. I had a couple of wasps get in my apartment somehow a couple weeks ago, and I caught them with a cup and paper and let them out again. Like earlier, I saw the spider, I left the bathroom, freaked the fuck out about it lol, made a natural spider repellent, and then sprayed it when I saw he crawled back wherever he goes when he's not staring at me brushing my teeth.
And now he'll come and thank me by biting my throat tonight.
We looked it up online and I think it ended up being a black lace weaver, or a wolf spider, I honestly don't want to go back and try to figure it out again. And on the wikipedia it was talking about matriphagy and that really horrified me.
It came from when I worked at a summer camp when I was younger, and it just struck me that all these kids would sit in a park and flip out when they saw an insect and immediately either try to kill it or get one us to kill it for them. So I spent the whole summer trying to learn up on the native insects in my area so I could tell the kids about them, from a distance, and try to get them to respect this is just another type of animal. You wouldn't kill a cat just for walking by you, but it could potentially fuck you up if it felt threatened too.
I'll probably end up dying from a spider bite tonight now that im saying all this, but I just feel that being scary or gross shouldn't be a death sentence for an animal, no matter how small or insignificant we think they and their lives are. They're just living their lives and doing their thing. I had a couple of wasps get in my apartment somehow a couple weeks ago, and I caught them with a cup and paper and let them out again. Like earlier, I saw the spider, I left the bathroom, freaked the fuck out about it lol, made a natural spider repellent, and then sprayed it when I saw he crawled back wherever he goes when he's not staring at me brushing my teeth.
And now he'll come and thank me by biting my throat tonight.
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