09-22-2012, 10:58 AM
Putting on a mask of happiness is generally what im very good at, specially fooling people into thinking everything is fine.
I tell people not to bottle feelings up and stuff, but when it comes to myself, i tend to contradict what i advise others to do.
I do have a optimistic attitude to life, but i will admit i have my down moments, and i make sure its whenever no one else is around normally.
That said though, life's gift is one thing, that which is given to us at birth, the right to live. The course of life however is what we, make of it. Some people do get more privilaged lives and some dont even realise it til they basically loose it.
You are worth more than you can even understand. I see no value in my life no more, the way im treated sometimes i dont even see why im still living sometimes, but hell i vowed along time ago, to myself, that i wouldnt leave this world without at least leaving my mark, i would go out with a bang and i am dead set on doing that.
Value in our own lives is what we decide to put into it. The judgements and opinions of others are nothing compared to the plans we make ourselves, for not every person plan in life is the same.
I hold secrets, even from my fiancè, not because i like holding them, but i do it out of protection for the people i love, because seeing them happy makes me happy. When people are telling stories of their lives to each other, i sit in silence and just listen picking up on things that i think might be good for myself.
Sitting in the background doesnt help though, you do need to throw yourself out there sometimes, do embarrassing things, make yourself known. I spent a large chunk of my life already in depression, wasnt til i stood up, said enough is enough and now i throw my energy into making sure im noticed, im here and i exist, as much as you do Zet.
You need to stand up, stand up and make yourself known, show people your not a walk over, smile to the things that make "YOU" happy and not other people. Need to show what make your feel alive (in my case i tend to talk literal gibberish ask Corsac if you dont believe me)
Be loud, be proud, because life is too short to feel worthless, because if you stand tall, your friends will more likely follow you, than you following them, or so thats what i discovered.
I tell people not to bottle feelings up and stuff, but when it comes to myself, i tend to contradict what i advise others to do.
I do have a optimistic attitude to life, but i will admit i have my down moments, and i make sure its whenever no one else is around normally.
That said though, life's gift is one thing, that which is given to us at birth, the right to live. The course of life however is what we, make of it. Some people do get more privilaged lives and some dont even realise it til they basically loose it.
You are worth more than you can even understand. I see no value in my life no more, the way im treated sometimes i dont even see why im still living sometimes, but hell i vowed along time ago, to myself, that i wouldnt leave this world without at least leaving my mark, i would go out with a bang and i am dead set on doing that.
Value in our own lives is what we decide to put into it. The judgements and opinions of others are nothing compared to the plans we make ourselves, for not every person plan in life is the same.
I hold secrets, even from my fiancè, not because i like holding them, but i do it out of protection for the people i love, because seeing them happy makes me happy. When people are telling stories of their lives to each other, i sit in silence and just listen picking up on things that i think might be good for myself.
Sitting in the background doesnt help though, you do need to throw yourself out there sometimes, do embarrassing things, make yourself known. I spent a large chunk of my life already in depression, wasnt til i stood up, said enough is enough and now i throw my energy into making sure im noticed, im here and i exist, as much as you do Zet.
You need to stand up, stand up and make yourself known, show people your not a walk over, smile to the things that make "YOU" happy and not other people. Need to show what make your feel alive (in my case i tend to talk literal gibberish ask Corsac if you dont believe me)
Be loud, be proud, because life is too short to feel worthless, because if you stand tall, your friends will more likely follow you, than you following them, or so thats what i discovered.
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