09-21-2012, 05:15 AM
You're letting others drag you down when you know your motivations better than anyone else.
You are the intelligent, inquisitive, person you know yourself to be and, sure, it feels good to help others, even if that's just making them smile for a moment.
Hold on to what you know is good and right and, valuable about yourself. If they choose not to be your friend, then it is their loss, not yours because they just lost one fantastic friend.
Let them go, move on and find people to surround yourself with that "get" you and love and accept you for who and what you are.
Yes, there are a lot of blind fools out there that will pass up the opportunity to know you, but you'll find enough that will take and value that opportunity too.
No, your post is not petty. I think you are doing some honest soul searching and, that's a good thing. It shows a level of maturity and concern for both yourself and others that not everyone possesses.
While I doubt life is really as horrid as you feel it is right now, I understand why it seems that way to you. The thoughts and emotions that "intervention" stirred up are still fresh and raw for you, so you are seeing everything through shades of that. Take some time, get it all back in as objective a perspective as you can and, remember who you really are, not who they think you are.
You are the intelligent, inquisitive, person you know yourself to be and, sure, it feels good to help others, even if that's just making them smile for a moment.
Hold on to what you know is good and right and, valuable about yourself. If they choose not to be your friend, then it is their loss, not yours because they just lost one fantastic friend.
Let them go, move on and find people to surround yourself with that "get" you and love and accept you for who and what you are.
Yes, there are a lot of blind fools out there that will pass up the opportunity to know you, but you'll find enough that will take and value that opportunity too.
No, your post is not petty. I think you are doing some honest soul searching and, that's a good thing. It shows a level of maturity and concern for both yourself and others that not everyone possesses.
While I doubt life is really as horrid as you feel it is right now, I understand why it seems that way to you. The thoughts and emotions that "intervention" stirred up are still fresh and raw for you, so you are seeing everything through shades of that. Take some time, get it all back in as objective a perspective as you can and, remember who you really are, not who they think you are.
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