i don't care....

[lizzielee]

You know everyone handles grief differently. Some people like to grieve privately and find it hard to express themselves when they are suffering and prehaps this is what is happening with your dad. Some people grieve long after the event. Just because you do not have any grief like feelings over this at the moment, you never wanted it to happen so that shows you have some feelings. You said that you never really knew your grandmother so that too can explain why you aren't grief stricken. You don't need to become better, you sound like you are very perspective and that will get you far in life......
I hope it goes as well as can be expected with regard to the funeral and all the comes along with that. All the best and Take care.
Love to you......
LL