How did we get this far?

[lizzielee]

I ran away from home when I was 16 due to abuse from my stepfather. I hitchhiked across to the other side of Australia and phoned my mother and told her I was travelling around with friends. I found work as a stripper and pretty soon had my first lesbian relationship. Not long after that, I got a back yard tattoo done and contracted Hep C. I have since cleared the virus 2009. I worked in adult industry for about two years and two things happened. I made lots of money and hated men. During this time, it was very uncool to be a lesbian in the late 70's early 80's. You were shunned upon and it was not accepted. There was lots of gay bashing and there was lots of discrimination. During this time, I had several relationships with other women. I could not stand any more of the work I was doing so I went back home and about two weeks later, my girlfriend followed. Soon after her arrival, she told my mother about the relationship and my mother just could not handle it. She went hysterical. I was mentally weak from all the crap from the lifestyle I was living and I gave into my mother and broke off the relationship with her and started dating men to please my family. My mother cried for days and days and she kept saying to me I will never have grandchildren and all that type of crap. Pressure was put onto me to get married and go to church as it would "fix" me up! So I thought, if I can't be with a woman, then I want a rich man who can at least please me financially as he couldn't sexually. So I found a good man and married him. I had a daughter and a son soon after believing that this would "fix" me but it made me worse. I wanted to be in a relationship with another woman not a man. I was miserable and made myself happy by shopping. I made friends with other women who I secretly wanted to sleep but never did. I only wish, I had the strength to stand up to my family and social pressures and live my life as I wanted with another woman. Anyway, I made my choices and I have to live with the consequences of it.

Thankfully, it is a lot more acceptable here and there are laws that protect you. If I was a teenager now, I would definitely live my life as a lesbian........