Luis- not so manic.

[ChadCoxRox]

I think I have grown a lot since those days in high school. I'm so much more comfortable in my own skin and most of my fear is gone. I guess I just posted this because I'm on the verge of coming out to the people that matter to me. Which is one step to solving my crisis with her. If i were to tell her all this before I came out she might take vengence and out me. That is why its important i deal with my family before I deal with her. Once I know I will keep this job i have and find it stable. I will do the most important step in my life and finally come out of the closet. I get all teary eyed when i actually think how close I am to the end of this all. I sometimes really can't believe I have come so far. Thank you guys so much for just being there to listen. You don't know how important you guys really are to me at this stage in my life. Everything you guys offer to me i have to take it with great respect because you guys really are my only connection in the gay community and I have to value any comments from our side of the fence because in this town I 'am a one man army. I really appreciate all of you. Dfiant- lizzielee-CCrox-Rainbowmum-CodyH-and tryingnewthing. I really value these comments and they will be with me until the second i make myself know to the whole world.

SEE HOW YOU ARE??? Now I'm all happy with tears in my eyes for such a beautiful dude!!!!! I love you Lewis and I am so excited for you. The stuff you describe and share so simply is what will make you so much MORE of a man and a person!!! Hang in there and keep the faith. Do not take on responsibility for anyone else's choices, feelings, etc. Theirs are NOT yours. You will be awesome no matter how you proceed just because you are being R.E.A.L.! (You also set a fine example for me! And I'm sure plenty of others.)