I need your help with something

[Azoo0ooz]

Hold on, you say just friend with benefits? And you think he can dump you. To me it takes more thay that to making being dumped possible. Okay you stop having sex, maybe even stop being fiends, but that isn't being dumped.

So is it friend or something more?

It is selfish, natural but selfish and, maybe you need to examine why you need them? What is it that you don't like about you? What void are you filling with having them seem to need you?

Sort that out and, when you don't actually need to be needed, go find someone. Sure it feels good to be needed but, it's lousy to need to be needed. That sets you up for all sorts of heartache and, on a path of broken relationships.

Work on loving you and being okay alone first, you'll be glad you did in the long run.

Yeah. He's just a friend, but a real good friend who I really don't wanna lose

I thought about what you said and it had crossed my mind before. I've asked myself for so many years "Why do I need them to be happy?" but I can't find the answer
I mean, it's kinda complicated. I feel so sad when I'm alone. I've spent a lot of time on my own after my ex left me and it hadn't helped me
I mean it made me even more depressed and sad. I'm just the kind of person who gets attached to people way too much
and I'd think about the day that they would leave me and they usually do, so that left me with some kind of insecurity.

I dunno if what I'm saying is making any sense, but I just got those feelings bottled up inside of me
and it's hard for me to write them out in order. They just come out running the minute I let go of them lol