10-24-2012, 01:39 AM
No I don't do "alone" very well. I'm a very social person, always have been. And I don't think anyone who does cope well with being alone is weird. It's just who they are. Heck, I have my times when I like to be alone, especially when I'm sick. But like I said I'm a very social person. I like to have someone around most of the time.
And I don't equate alone with being lonely. But I do get lonely a lot here lately. Especially at night when things settle down and it's just me and the puppy here by ourselves. And I do get that she's saying more than just "feed me." Trust me, I've learned to listen to her and know when she's wanting more than just food. She and I have a pretty good sense of what each other needs and I spend a lot of time just setting with her in my lap or in the floor playing with her. We are the best of friends.
The divorce will be final Monday when the judge signs the papers. Yes, I know I was wrong by getting into another relationship, gay or straight, before the divorce was final. But it was never my intention to do so. I found someone that I thought was a lot like me, we started off as friends, and things developed from there. Rather quickly I might add. But in no way do I apologize for falling in love with another man while the divorce was still in process. Nor do I regret it. I simply regret that things developed as quickly as they did and the fact that I fell so head over heels for him like I did.
And as far as the holidays go, I know that I have friends that I can spend them with. And if all else fails I have my family (God help me on that one)! But it would be nice to have someone to wake up to on Christmas Day, or to share a Thanksgiving supper just me and him. But that doesn't appear to be in the near future. *sigh*
And I don't equate alone with being lonely. But I do get lonely a lot here lately. Especially at night when things settle down and it's just me and the puppy here by ourselves. And I do get that she's saying more than just "feed me." Trust me, I've learned to listen to her and know when she's wanting more than just food. She and I have a pretty good sense of what each other needs and I spend a lot of time just setting with her in my lap or in the floor playing with her. We are the best of friends.
The divorce will be final Monday when the judge signs the papers. Yes, I know I was wrong by getting into another relationship, gay or straight, before the divorce was final. But it was never my intention to do so. I found someone that I thought was a lot like me, we started off as friends, and things developed from there. Rather quickly I might add. But in no way do I apologize for falling in love with another man while the divorce was still in process. Nor do I regret it. I simply regret that things developed as quickly as they did and the fact that I fell so head over heels for him like I did.
And as far as the holidays go, I know that I have friends that I can spend them with. And if all else fails I have my family (God help me on that one)! But it would be nice to have someone to wake up to on Christmas Day, or to share a Thanksgiving supper just me and him. But that doesn't appear to be in the near future. *sigh*
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