Help, Tired of being alone

[starbelly]

You're not alone. I for one relate to everything you just said. I get that recurring thought "no one will be interested in me" (we'll being in the closet doesn't help my case, but still)

That horrible constant feeling of loneliness, no one to share things but the wall, watching others pass from one love interest to the next so mindlessly...it does take a toll...it slowly drains your will to do things...it's exhausting.

Nevertheless, someone out there is waiting for you to pop into his life...I can't help you on how the hell to get out there and go find him, but I will tell you this...patience....live your day to day life...eventually you'll meet who you're supposed to...

In the meantime...feel free to vent here...you'll find some good internet-shoulders to cry on.

And, the obvious part, drinking will not make you feel any better...I know, I've had that same dealings with anti-depressives...you can numb yourself momentarily, but the problems don't go away.

Welcome to my life, guys. I relate to a lot of what you've said. I ranted about this on here when I first signed up, and was told that nobody would listen to my baggage or really care, but I think it's fine to scream at the world every once in awhile. We've got the cards stacked against us, some more than others, and I long for intimacy with someone too— like, legitimate, romantic intimacy— the only thing that helps me deal with it is distracting myself in any way that I can (immersing myself in projects, reading, writing, watching movies, playing music, etc.), and hoping I'll run across someone one of these days. I live in a pretty "gay" city and go to school downtown, so I'm on the market in that sense (in other words, I don't hole up in my house and never leave— I interact with people). I'm naturally a bit of a loner though and treasure my alone time, which makes it a bit more of a challenge.