i don't know what to do

[jimbopdxus]

Therapy is okay. Friends are okay. Those are fixes and not solutions. You were expecting more and the big bang never happened. However, one of these days you will be sitting in a coffee shop with a friend, or reading the newspaper at home, or one of a number of things and it will hit you... you are fine. That or one of these days you will be blindsided and "POW" you will break through the wall that is boxing you in. Been there, done that. You need to settle down, relax and enjoy the new world you are creating. You are not God. It won't be done in seven days. But when you are ready you will be able to stand back and say, "This is a good thing."