Not allowed to be myself.

[Rainbowmum]

First of all I would suggest that you do not tell your parents about this.( Safety)
Second, It's time to weigh up your options and make a decision about your future, it's never cut and dry it up to you to choose if you want to live a lie to please your family, or take the bull by the horns and make your future a reality.

You deserve to to be accepted and loved by someone for who you are.
Time to be true to yourself.