What's on Your Mind

[Jay]

I think you're very handsome, and youthful looking. Perhaps those making suggestions are jealous of that.

Don't touch anything.

Thanks Cellar for the kind words. Very much appreciated.

I have also been told by some people including former colleagues that I am nice looking. But I didn't believe them. I seriously thought they were just being nice to me. My mind was completely messed up at the time.

It was difficult to accept praises as negative words have been planted into my mind much earlier. Being criticized by my own mother makes it harder to get rid of the bad thoughts.

I wouldn't say I am fully recovered but at least i can accept my face as it is. Good looking or not, that's not the issue. The issue is self acceptance.

Regarding to plastic surgery on my face such as cheek implants or facelift in the future; frankly I'm over the fence. I just hope to god that I am still mentally strong to say no to alter my face in the future.