What's on Your Mind

[Jay]

I haven't spoken and seen my 'best friend' since last November. Yes, I considered him my best friend but he never sees more than just a close friend. He said he treats all of his friends equally. Funny as I was the one he sought 24/7 every day and night to talk on phone for hours, whatsapp, dinner every weekend and movie on every Friday.

I'm cutting him off from my life. It's a decision that I've made without telling him.I 'm sure he's aware that I am truly hurt by the friendship and I couldn't bare to go through it again. Yep, I did promise to protect and be there for him all the time. And I did. Many times. But he didn't see my worth. He just pushed me away for the sake of his other friends who love to sweet talk him 24/7.

I'm not that type of friend. I'm a brutally honest friend that doesn't have problem to critic you when it is necessary. If you're being a dick, I will you tell you that right on your face. I will not sugarcoat and lie about it. But in return, I will give you the sincerest friendship that you can ever find. Loyalty to the end. I will take bullet for you. I will shower you with so much tenderness that it will make you vomit rainbow.

But you hurt me. So much. So many times. You abandoned me for your other friends after I fought and defended you against your enemies. I smeared my name to save you. In return, you pushed me away.

Funny that you have the nerve to seek for me when you collapsed for the second and also the third time.Why didn't you seek your other friends? Oh, yeah...they chickened out as always.

So I had to make a decision for my own sanity and goodness. Cut the ties and let go. To forget you, I had to throw away all of our photos and the birthday present that you gave me. I also deleted your telephone number. But throwing things away are not enough to let you go from my mind because I've invested so much of my friendship in you. God, I love you so much.

Anyway you've made your decision. You can have all of your other friends who love to glorify you. I don't want to be apart of your circle anymore.

I'm not saying that I've done nothing wrong because I know I did many wrongs to you. But I've never neglected you. Not even once. You left me when I had a depression for others. But karma gets you. You ended up with a depression yourself. But I was there with you every day and night.

You once called me your prince charming. You also said I was something special. I could have been your prince charming forever but you let me go. I hope one day you will open your eyes and realize what you are missing.

My last advice to you; we both know you have a huge ego and a big temper. I can live with your volcanic temper but drop your big ego as it will eat you alive one day. Your willingness to feed your ego by sacrificing me. You hurt me so much.