What's on Your Mind

[starlight]

So there we go, i tried again, i went on grindr to chat only and got chatting with what seemed like a nice guy. We swapped numbers as texting is more reliable than that app, we have text a fair bit and decided to meet up today and now the time as passed and he as "only just woke up" yet he as been on grindr a hour ago.

Yesterday he said sorry he didnt reply sooner to which i said ok and he said his parents took his phone, yet i saw him online many times. After a few slight things i had this odd feeling about it all, gut feeling of something. Bang on the time we should have met he texts me he just woke up and his alarm didnt go off and he is sorry, i text him that a i text and got no reply so thought he wasnt turning up and he just said can we rearrange and he is sorry and he does want to meet me and i am not replying yet anyway.

Nah i am fed up with being let down, ignored, laughed at, piss took out of by lads, this makes me hate my sexuality more as it confuses me everyday anyway. So thats it for me i have given up, every gay man i have met or "connected with" in hopes to meet as "some reason" or just stops talking and texting. Its hard to not tar everyone with that same brush everyone else mentions when everyone does seem to be doing things like that.

I am fully aware its grindr but come on for gods sake most guys on it are real and its like general life everyone seems to be treating each other like fucking shit then wants what they take from others.

Give up