09-10-2014, 08:23 AM
I don't talk much about my childhood sex play memories cuz they're embarrassing as hell. hahahha! But I have pretty vivid memories all the way back to being in diapers. I can say one thing for sure about me after the age of five. There must have been no doubt in the minds of my parents or my older brother that I wasn't heterosexual. I came out with some lines that now I sure wish I'd never said. --- like the day I rode with my mom at age five to pick up something at one of her friends house. There were boys about 8 to 10 playing outside with their shirts off. I wanted to meet them and said some pretty gay things about how good they looked.
Then ... I ALWAYS had crushes on my brothers hunky friends and no one told me to hide it when I was young. I remember my brother having five of his friends in his room and them asking me which of them I liked best and me telling them. Here's the CRAZY part of all that which sort of warped me when I was in my teens. There were two of my brother's friends I had bad bad crushes on up to age 12. One of them is now a female impersonator in NYC. The other has undergone the full transition to become a woman and is an attorney in South Florida. Freaky. They really preyed on me when I was 17 and 18, making me wonder if I'd be like turn out like one of them.
I'm glad my parents and brother don't bring all that up to embarrass me now. But they've all said they always were pretty sure I wasn't going to turn out to be heterosexual and they just pretty much gave me 20 years to figure it out for myself and tell them when I was sure.
When I look back at it all and wonder --- I can't buy the bullshit some parents come off with about having no ideas their children are gay until they were told by their kids. They'd have to be totally stupid and blind not to figure it out. I can spot it in kids. I know one of my brother's daughters is definitely going to be a pretty lesbian. She's nine and like camo clothes, dirt bikes, four wheelers, baseball, softball and hangs out with boys while her older sisters and their friends play with make up and jewelry. hahahaha! It's a good thing my brother & sister in law are as cool about it as my parents were about me!!!!! Otherwise Mom and I'd be stealing her! Oh! and she has more ball caps and boys style hats than any boy I know! too cool.
Then ... I ALWAYS had crushes on my brothers hunky friends and no one told me to hide it when I was young. I remember my brother having five of his friends in his room and them asking me which of them I liked best and me telling them. Here's the CRAZY part of all that which sort of warped me when I was in my teens. There were two of my brother's friends I had bad bad crushes on up to age 12. One of them is now a female impersonator in NYC. The other has undergone the full transition to become a woman and is an attorney in South Florida. Freaky. They really preyed on me when I was 17 and 18, making me wonder if I'd be like turn out like one of them.
I'm glad my parents and brother don't bring all that up to embarrass me now. But they've all said they always were pretty sure I wasn't going to turn out to be heterosexual and they just pretty much gave me 20 years to figure it out for myself and tell them when I was sure.
When I look back at it all and wonder --- I can't buy the bullshit some parents come off with about having no ideas their children are gay until they were told by their kids. They'd have to be totally stupid and blind not to figure it out. I can spot it in kids. I know one of my brother's daughters is definitely going to be a pretty lesbian. She's nine and like camo clothes, dirt bikes, four wheelers, baseball, softball and hangs out with boys while her older sisters and their friends play with make up and jewelry. hahahaha! It's a good thing my brother & sister in law are as cool about it as my parents were about me!!!!! Otherwise Mom and I'd be stealing her! Oh! and she has more ball caps and boys style hats than any boy I know! too cool.
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