the beginnings

[meridannight]

I came out with some lines that now I sure wish I'd never said. --- like the day I rode with my mom at age five to pick up something at one of her friends house. There were boys about 8 to 10 playing outside with their shirts off. I wanted to meet them and said some pretty gay things about how good they looked.

Then ... I ALWAYS had crushes on my brothers hunky friends and no one told me to hide it when I was young. I remember my brother having five of his friends in his room and them asking me which of them I liked best and me telling them.

I'm glad my parents and brother don't bring all that up to embarrass me now. But they've all said they always were pretty sure I wasn't going to turn out to be heterosexual and they just pretty much gave me 20 years to figure it out for myself and tell them when I was sure.

sounds like you had cool parents and brother. sounds like they let you have your freedom when growing up.

i had that. i was given a lot of freedom when i was a kid and i was let to figure things out on my own too. nobody pushed anything on me. i'm entirely grateful to my mom for raising me that way.