the beginnings

[TwisttheLeaf]

that's your experience. it wasn't mine. don't confuse your life with my own.

you didn't offend me. i know my life better than you do.

please leave it out of this thread.

You were asking for first experiences, the beginnings of ones travels, were you not?

Not all such experiences are positive. Gideon's happens to be negative.

I'm not sure I feel okay with someone saying (in summary) "your experience doesn't belong here, fuck off" in a thread ASKING for experiences and reactions.

I understand you may not like his reaction, but it was honest. I don't see how it -doesn't- belong here with the experiences and reactions of everyone else, regardless of the fact his was a negative one.

Please remember to be -kind- to others, even those you might not agree with.

As for my beginnings?

I knew from as long back as I can remember I was attracted to men. So did my father. My entire life I was berated for these preferences, and qualities, that made it clear I was not going to grow up to be a "seed sower" in our family.

My first time with a man (oral), I was fourteen and it was in an alley behind a grocery store.... he was somewhere in his 20's, which is something I didn't see wrong when I was at that age, but now look back on and skeeve at the pedophilia aspects involved from the vantage point of a 26 year old. (Especially since at 14 I didn't yet look 14.) It was entirely consensual. My first time -kissing- a man was a few months later, and closer to my own age.

My first time with a woman was a couple years later. I didn't start being attracted to women until girls my own age grew boobs and started filling in around the hips.