the beginnings

[Beaux]

sorry it triggered bad memories for you. and thank you for sharing your story.

my experience was a neutral thing for me; i thought it was obvious from what i wrote. i didn't think that it could trigger something negative for others.



i don't understand, are you talking about Gideon here? you were addressing him but it looks like you could be referring to my post.

in the latter case, nah i don't have any deeper feelings about it.

that incident was a neutral thing for me. not positive, not negative, just neutral. i know people will tell me it was wrong and that i should feel something about it. i never have, and what happened to me at the time did not feel negative. i just didn't want to start an argument on the subject of morality of an adult touching a kid that way, i'd never win that argument. and i agree it's wrong on the adult side. but that specific experience i went through in first person was never negative or wrong to me, and i will never see it that way. that's how arguing about it is pointless. we'll end up nowhere with it.

i wanted people not to focus on that because there was more to my post than that one thing. did you all just take that one thing out it? more important was what was going through my mind when i was a kid, the thoughts i had concerning other boys and being with them, which i also shared in my post. i wanted you to see that more than that incident with my mom's friend. that's why i wanted the issue to be put to rest. but if you really want to talk about it that much i can answer all your questions.

No, I want referring to you or to Gideon, I was referring to the friend who was showering with his father and how sometimes people can initiate trigger responses in others with out them understanding why.
The fact that you felt neutral about an adult fondling your genitals as a toddler might not have seemed like a big deal when it happened and I might still not feel like a big deal to you now, but when you post something like that in a public forum you can't really get angry because people comment on it and express how it makes them feel. Everyone has a right to their own responses. That was what I was trying to say, in a more polite way, with my post.
Good day mate,
Beaux