First Gay Experience?

[himself]

I remember looking in the Guinness Book of World Records and there was a picture of this fat man in it (I think he broke the record for chilli eating or something) and I was fascinated by him. I think I was 7 at the time. I don't remember thinking it was weird that I was interested in him. It's just something that faded in. When I was 11, I had this friend. He was kind of chubby and I was fascinated by what was underneath his clothes. One day, I tried to feel his chest, not directly though. I was trying to hit him with something (we were just messing about) and I decided to hit him in the chest, just to see what it felt like. That memory just sticks out in my mind for some reason. When I was 12, I started secondary school and there was this boy in my class Eddy was short with fair hair and glasses. I thought he was beautiful. He wasn't really but for some reason i thought he was. I dreamt that he came up to me and gave me a kiss. I don't know how I rationalised that. Next, I developed a fascination with another boy in my class. He was a bit chubby. Not fat, but chubby. He looked really good in his uniform. I always wanted to get a glimpse of him in PE when we were getting changed. One day, I did get a good look at him with his shirt off. I remember that I wasn't disappointed.