I think my family hates me...

[chibigiraffe]

yeah, the thing with my family is that they believe that their "relationship" with god is more important than any other relationship. it's said many times at my church (well, i don't go there anymore but...) that no relationship is worth going to hell over. that is how they live and it's how they (we...) have always lived.

when i realised what doctrine i was a part of it disgusted me. i realise that my cominng-out to myself led me to question my beliefs and re-evaluate my life. most of the people i know haven't really had any experience like the one i've had (my sexuality was something that i knew i couldn't change even though it went against the bible...). and they will never have the chance to question their beliefs if they continue to stay trapped in their closed-off world...

but i'm working on letting go of the grudges i have, because in the end it's hurting me more than it's affecting them.