Openly gay but dislike (most) gay males?

[sethmachine]

Thank you all for contributing to this discussion. It means a lot to hear different opinions and voices of reason.

If I may play armchair psychologist here, [MENTION=21654]sethmachine[/MENTION], your post makes me want to explore your self-confidence and self worth. If you can't befriend people you find attractive but can befriend people you seem to find less attractive than yourself, then from over here it looks like you are building yourself up by being "more attractive" than your friends. It may not even be conscious. If you have a sense of competitiveness with guys you find attractive, but not with guys you don't find attractive, then maybe it's time to look at why you are basing things on physical features at all.

I think this is close to hitting the nail on the head. I may subconsciously choose to have friends who are less attractive than me, but often it just so happens that most video gamers rather spend time grinding than perfecting their hair style or physique.

It's definitely self-confidence and self-worth. Since growing up I was always the last pick for most things. Sports teams obviously, but also being invited to tables during school lunch, or actually given a chance to socialize. In (high) school, it didn't matter that I was really polite and smart (I was valedictorian). My fellow students literally gave zero fucks. I don't have a single friend from my entire decade + going through the school systems.

And I have a long history of being rejected (from my point of view). Every place (school, college, sports team, work, etc.), if I don't end up as some kind of leader, I'm a complete outcast. I guess that's because I know I can't beat most people at the game (in general I'm outclassed in all physically attractive attributes), so I don't bother to play if I'm not already in some kind of position of authority.
[MENTION=20738]TwisttheLeaf[/MENTION]

I certainly don't have good feelings about them. I don't ignore their existence, unless I've been rejected (enough).

I've thought of that analogy. But interestingly I'm actually bisexual. Yet, I have zero animosity towards attractive women. And if a girl I like does reject me, it doesn't bother me in the same way as a guy doing it. The only time I might not like a girl is if she would try to get involved with a partner of mine. Though I'm definitely more into guys than girls.

I just really don't like attractive gay men.