Putting myself together again

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Thanks Camfer, it just hurts because to me he keeps doing this push pull thing, But my friend has pointed out I'd only be hurt by him because he's a terrible cheater, he hasn't been faithful to his own girlfriend at all while away for only 2 and a half months from her (he's been with her a little over 2 years now, so he shouldn't be doing that). Seems almost like he's indifferent to the fact that I had a mental breakdown so it just hurts so much. I don't know, I just feel like crap with this on top of many other problems such as a job prospect and living at home with my mom still. I need to get better first, but this is a big obstacle for me. I was told it'd be best to not talk to him for now, and I do agree with that.