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[Cridders88]

Thanks for your reply. just today I signed up for this site to try and deal with my situation. Where I live homosexuality is really the only "sin". everyone knows everyone or at least their cousin. I know some know that I have at least slept with a guy,and whenever anything "gay" is mentioned I inwardly go into panic mode.
I know I shouldn't care,but where I am you have to. OR,maybe thats just my fear,one with which I am sick of. Some of my friends and family know about me,that's o.k. I guess it's the living in others minds that is killing me...Is there a way to stop caring about if/what others know/think about me? I am tired,so tired of this.

Some of your friends and family know about you. You may not realise it, but that is a huge step in your journey to being comfortable with who you are. You are ok with them knowing, so you have shown that you are ok being open to the people closer to you. As for the others, people in the street, do they really matter? I think it will get to a point where eventually it will become too exhausting to actually give a damn about what these people think. Life is too short to be worried about what people who aren't important think of you. I do hope you reach that way of thinking soon, I think it will come

Welcome to the forum btw, I hope you find some answers and comfort here x