my 1st BF

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[MENTION=23180]axle2152[/MENTION] I want to drop it and "move on" with life but he's not just an ordinary ex, not because I have lingering feeling for him but we've been friends for more than 10 years, we went to the same middle&high school -we're also in the same class for 2years in high school- there are bound to be awkward meetings in the future if I don't make things right with him and I don't want that. I've been trying to reach him for the last 3 years -we lost it 4 years ago tho, so there's like a year gap for me to realize how big of an asshole I was to him- well, I gave up on online thingy anyway, so, going thru a common friend is the sanest choice.

Do you think it is going to give you closure if it goes badly? Probably not, I think you'll still feel the same if not more hurt.

It is tough to move on, but trust me you'll be doing yourself a huge favor. I can't tell you how to get over your ex but it has to be done. Time is the only thing that can heal.

That being said, do what you will. Folks here have given the advice to not try to rekindle anything because it will likely not go well, but you seem very determined in going through with this. That being said, think it through.