Feel like Im cursed being Bi

[Lycanking55]

Hi again, I took a little hiatus from overthinking this and just sort of looked at it more objectively and I wanted to give an update, although im not sure anyone wants one. I'm in a better place with this then I was when I originally posted. By no means do I have much of it actually figured out yet, but I feel a little better about continuing to try.

The girl im with is really awesome and I care about her a lot. The "just sort of happened" part wasn't a negative at all, it just developed very naturally and I wasn't actively looking for someone at the time is all.

I feel like I will at one point or another have to talk to her about this because its a part of me, but im still extremely nervous about it. Whether the result is discussing strap ons or me experimenting with a guy to see if its something I truly like or desire, Im afraid she'll look at me differently knowing about any of this. Im afraid that just the discussion, whether she says shes ok with it or not or does or doesn't enjoy it, will be enough for her not to be as attracted to me. Even more than that, im afraid of losing her. I know she would never freak out or be cruel about this, shes kind and has no problem with what others like to do, but much like sexuality and I feel to an extent your kinks aren't choice, I know she cant choose how she would feel about it. Whether she would be attracted to a guy thats into these kind of things isn't choice.

Thats really the heart of my fear I guess, the "what she'll think of me" and losing her. Its the underlying part of why this was an issue in the first place. Anyway, I want to thank you guys again for talking. Its been way more of weight off knowing theirs a community out here to help than I expected it to be.