What does this mean?

[jeremyst]

Thank you for the comments. That is really sad to think about. It's actually starting to hurt me now, just thinking about it when he's chatting others for whatever reason. But I know we are just casual.

In terms of accepting that we'll be just friends with benefits, I don't know if I can accept that thinking about how I feel right now. And I am even more scared about if my feelings will grow more, I know I will be really hurt when it's time to part with him.

Apart from the good times that we are having at the moment, the reason I am staying is because I am kind of hoping that there might be even the smallest chance he'll see me in a different light. But reading about your comments now, I guess I need to think otherwise... Should I be better off to pull the plug now or later... I don't know.