Talking about yourself

[InbetweenDreams]

Axle: Do you see it as vulnerability?

Yes and no. No because some people see it that you're very honest and outgoing (although I don't consider myself outgoing AT ALL). Some people find the things I do, hobbies for instance interesting... Other people may think you're full of yourself. Just depends, but just goes to show you can't please everyone.

Yes because people get the wrong idea about things about you despite attempting to be transparent and open. Then you got your sociopaths and psychos who like to pick you apart so they know how to attack you, win an argument, get you fired, trick you into saying something. When you open yourself up you're inviting for someone to come in, that could be a good thing or a very bad thing.

On my personal experience, well hard to say. I think I have been fairly fortunate to not have had worse luck. I want to keep saying it's this place, it's this place. But I have found that opening up about how I feel either weeds people out or gets me no where. I am either expressing myself too much or not enough, either I'm not open enough when people try forcing it out of me, other times I'm far too afraid to express my feelings to someone, directly, because of the fear of rejection. On the other hand, foolishly, I have been known to "wear my heart on my sleeve."

The more I think about it, I feel that the less I say, to a point, the better. I don't think telling someone how much and why I like them made any difference in the end frankly. At the same time so did shutting up. I guess there's balance somewhere in between, an island of stability? Mind you I am speaking of dating, relationships...love if that is a real thing...I assume you're regarding all this in the same context...

Honestly if I were to consider the odds. I probably have better odds at winning a $1,000 on a scratch off lottery ticket than to find my "soul mate." Most people don't stick around anyway, either they lose interest in you because you argue, fight, lose your job, they lose their job, they cheat, you cheat. It is why the wedding industry is quite lucrative, people breaking up, finding a new partner over and over again.

Eh I'm just full of gloom and doom today.