Being Gay

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For you personally, is being gay something that is strictly an attraction to your own gender, or do you think it influences other aspects of who you are as well? Like if you suddenly met a straight version of yourself, how different or similar would you two be?

What does gay mean in terms of an identity? Your personal identity or a broader social/cultural one.

I strongly identify as a man who is attracted to other men. It does go beyond just sex for me. It's an integral part of myself, without which I would not be me. A man who was in every respect like myself, but who felt attraction for women, would be light years apart from who I am.

But I think this has a lot to do with the connection I feel for men. What I feel for other men is the deepest and most beautiful feeling known to exist to me in the whole Universe. It is the strongest impulse in me, that pull toward men. It is the purest and most enlightened state of mind. It is the ideal state, physically, emotionally, and mentally.

And it is the strength of my feelings for men, that is the essence of who I am. Everything is centered on it, it's like it's the source of gravity, or the ground of my life. It goes beyond my sexuality, although that is obviously part of it. Rather, my sexuality is but one little aspect/part of this whole disposition of mine that I have toward men.

I love men. With every molecule of my being. And this qualifier does not do justice to what it feels like.