Why I am still single...

[InbetweenDreams]

[MENTION=23908]Shawn[/MENTION] Well all I can say is while I have met a lot of guys I have not had all that many "relationships" and by that I mean ones that really had some sort of connection. Never lived with a guy or anything like that. Most of the guys I meet things just don't get real deep or I never meet up with a second time. So it has been hard to figure out exactly what I want but I feel that I am getting closer on figuring it out.

I can definitely take the time to work on myself I often am a bit harsh with myself because I feel like if I meet someone who I really like and think they're the one who I want to spend the rest of my life with well I better try to make damn sure they feel that way about me and if I am not trying to improve on myself what is there to desire. I feel like I am often the debtor, that I need to make up for my shortcomings. However I feel that when you're in love with someone you don't see their flaws, only the good things and perhaps it is easy to feel that way. Perhaps that's why I feel like I have to go way beyond what I should at times? Hmmm...