Money is the Anthem of success...

[InbetweenDreams]

Well all I can say is that I think I need to change some of the things I am doing and stick to it. I brought up my car situation a few times. I do think I made the right choice in getting rid of the car but even then I still will have a car payment for some time. Then this credit card stuff... I really ought to cut up the cards tonight (but can't....not yet anyway). I think it is definitely in my best interest to consolidate them and try to pay down the balances and not go back. Maybe be able to save up some money and hopefully by then I will have some money saved up so I can move on out. From there, who knows.

I am probably too hard on myself on things, I do think that a lot of people do stay with family a lot longer than they used to. PLus my mom has been sick, well pretty much all my life, and my dad definitely needs a break from all that. They don't get out and do things much either, so having an few evenings with a bonfire and beer helps him unwind...and myself too. My mother doesn't get out much now especially since she broke her foot a while back....so part of me has also felt bad about leaving her behind because she's not able to drive or do anything, so I suppose from her point of view it is nice to have me around since my dad can be a bit of a hardass at times....means well but hard to deal with at times. Anyway, probably a little too much into my life but I suppose it doesn't matter. Not like I'm running for political office...

It is hard to love yourself, at least it has been for me and that is often the first bit of advice you get. I wish I could snap my fingers, knew for sure what really will make me a happy person and be able to love myself and have the confidence I need. I hate that I always second guess myself too, even though with things i have been able to pull through and succeed at.

I suppose it is all part of the journey...