Came out... officially?

[Camfer]

I've never had any friends, and my relatives (and according to my mom) are shady and pretty toxic themselves, not just with gays, but with other things too.

What am I to do? I mean, it'll be silly for me to turn around and say: "oh, I was just joking", or, "it was all in my head", just to not get kicked out.

Well if not friends and family then you turn to social support services.

"Rainbow Alley is a safe space supporting LGBTQ youth and their allies ages 11 to 21, providing a drop-in space, youth-led events and activities, counseling and support groups, health services, and life services, all in a warm, welcoming, and supportive environment."

1301 E Colfax
Denver, CO 80218
303-733-7743

They'll either help or point you in the right direction.